Need to ventilate - About to crumble under pressure
Hi, I just need to vent for a bit. I’m currently the only junior (Yes I’m an intern) on a live project which means I am solely responsible 99.9% of external and internal communication and coordination, tracking, and materials ofc. Everything is running smoothly except for a few admin hiccups here and there. I get a lot of praise from my bank etc and I know this is essentially good for my development. With that being said, the pressure is killing me. I can barely sleep, my heart is pounding 24/7, I can’t relax when I’m off work. I am constantly scared of messing up big time despite telling myself I’m just an intern, and that it is ok (doesn’t really feel ok when the client emails me directly should something be held up etc). This is the first time I’m a part of this kind of process as well so I don’t have any solid foundation to lean back on, it’s more of a learn as you go thing.
Don’t really have a question, just had to voice my anxiety
Suits season 1 Episode 1: This is long hours, intense pressure, I need a grown goddamn man.
Haha I guess this shows I’m not a grown goddamn man.
Honestly tho, I’d kill for some straight forward ppt/ modeling to 4 in the morning instead. Much easier on the mind
Careful what you wish for.. lol
yep
if someone told you the job was easy, they lied or are morons...
Good luck xxx
Yeah you’re absolutely right that at surface level it is very stressful. You have to be careful when emailing the client and even more careful when emailing buyers / handling diligence / handling data room access with sensitive documentation, etc. When you take the process work and add in 20 tab models of 50-100 page CIMs and MPs with many excel backups tables and outputs with multiple sources, there’s just fundamentally a lot of room for error.
I think what makes it better is 1) doing it a few times (reps), 2) realizing that even your senior bankers, senior client professionals, etc all make mistakes, typos, send the wrong email, say the wrong thing and 3) 90% of stuff just isn’t that big of a deal even if something bad happens.
Focus on being thorough, methodical, present, and logical when completing work to minimize mistakes. Have faith in yourself. If you’re too stressed about “don’t make a mistake, don’t make a mistake” that’s when things go wrong. You got this.
Yeah I second all of it. Thank you for the encouragement :) Well needed
Job ain't for everyone kid.
The fact that a bank has staffed an intern as the sole person at the junior level on a live project is a joke. This is a failure on the part of the staffer and the senior team. Sending calendar invites and dial-ins? fine, but being the primary point of contact with the client is preposterous. This deal must be a favor for someone.
I don’t wanna go to much into detail, but unfortunately the deal is quite sizable (deal value wise and fee wise for the bank) with a relatively high chance of success. Which sucks because that just increases the pressure on me
To my banks defense, they know I am very capable due to my previous experience and performance. But not like this…
What happens when you leave in a month? What M&A could be wrapped up in 3 months?
You don't need to answer but none of this makes any sense.
At least you will have a great resume talking point if you want to find a different FT opportunity.
Yeah this is a surprising amount of responsibility for an intern. Given it’s so involved, why not staff even one full time analyst on it?
Today's top post on WSO: diversity candidate has a panic attack when asked to do simple admin tasks. Go figure.
I don’t work in a third-world country with a extremely messed up diversity-hire system so that’s not me. And I’m not doing simple admin tasks, that’d be the dream
You act like you have responsibility for these projects. It's not full responsibility though - you have tasks to do. Don't take them too seriously. If you do mess up, ok that's fine - just get back up on your feet and keep going.
And when I say don't take them too seriously, I don't mean to just submit mediocre work. Do your best and you should be fine.
In 5 years will this matter?
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