Crying for the first time in IB

Started a few months back, and even though I’m an emotional guy I don’t really cry beyond a few tears when I’m really frustrated.

Idk what it is, but since starting I’ve had a constant urge to cry. It’s like that weird chest butterflies and lump in the throat feeling.

Maybe it’s the lack of sleep, toxic culture, not seeing fridnda or family, or likely a mix of all.

I feel like I constantly need to compose myself, and worried about the optics of a dude finally breaking and crying after getting yelled at by an associate.

I feel like I can’t really talk about this with anyone other than a therapist or something which I don’t have time for.

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as a terminally depressed degen, i really have so much patience for being yelled at. 5 months ago my associate said i was stupid and restarted in front of everyone and i was surprised i had no reaction to it. just remember, in a few years you'll hardly remember any of this toxicity

i'd suggest hitting the gym (no bs). it helps numb me emotionally and physically. if there are nice ppl in your office, try to stay close with them

 
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Thanks for posting / sharing man and I 100% relate. I've been in IB 2+ years now and this feeling has not gone away. (Sorry don't mean to scare you, its definitely just a me problem). 

There are good weeks and bad weeks, but I get this feeling a lot. You nailed your description, my breathing gets really weird too and is hard to breathe, honestly is probably just a mild mini anxiety attack everytime. I want to cry so often man. I am on my way out, been spamming linkedin want to go to strategic finance probably. 

 

Don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re feeling this way because you don’t have a base of confidence to feel secure in your abilities on the job.

I recommend proactively asking your associate / VP for feedback. This way either A) you get positive feedback that builds your confidence or B) you have actionable things to improve on which will also build your confidence.

Once you feel more secure in your position (~6 months on the desk), I think you’ll notice this feeling goes away.

 

ass a depressedcel, i feel u bro… from when i get into the office, until i leave, i have this constant chest heavy-feeling and have to resist the urge to cry lol maybe im just a bitch tho

 

I feel this heavy. I literally will go to bed at 2 on a Friday and wake up at 6am the next day with panic. My heart races and I can’t go backto sleep. This happens every fucking day of the week and I hate it

 

????? you're not landing in Normandy, why would you cry lol

in case your mental chemistry is messed up consider a combination of detachment + nicotine + supplements + recovery (sleeping) in the weekends + meeting women + build caramaderie and have some laughs in your office to destress

incentives trumph ethics
 

no idea what those terms mean, but if everyone can learn the job I would not recruit weak emotional guys

might fill it with non-targets and create a frat culture, but HR/DEI destroyed that pre 2008 culture

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