Need Reassurance

Hi all, I am a first year analyst at one of those, wants to be a BB but it’s not, but also isn’t quite a MM firm. Anyway, I took this job knowing that it was going to be very grueling in terms of hours and work load and I was very prepared for that. However, what I did not see coming was the emotional taxation that comes with working in an industry that cares so much about whether or not a fucking period is used in one footnote and not another.

I am coming up on four months of work now and while I feel as though I am learning and getting better, it just seems as though I cannot escape making mistakes. Almost every other project I’m on, I have stupid oversights or a wrong number included and so on. I have always considered myself to be very hard working and competent enough and here my self-esteem just gets battered everyday. What makes this worse is that I get very down on myself whenever I feel as though I have messed up and I don’t think that I was prepared to deal with this level of scrutiny.

If you all either feel this way or have felt this way please let me know how you are getting through it or how you got through it.

Thanks, Need Rest