Is college supposed to be this unenjoyable?
So I recently started college at a target university - albeit one that's known for excessively intense academics - and so far I've been extremely let down by the experience. I was quite surprised to learn that the people here, the university's highly selective admissions notwithstanding, are incredibly uninspiring, and in some cases downright embarrassing: it's hard not to despise many of them. The campus itself is total garbage too; maybe my expectations were unreasonable, but coming from a garbage rural high school, I expected something a little more august and self-respecting. On the contrary, the buildings are derelict and in many instances crumbling. Crime is rampant. The professors are nothing like the teachers in high school; instead of being passionate about rigorous pedagogy or spreading the joy of their subject, they're mostly grandstanding, crotchety boomers struggling with rootlessness in a world that's clearly left them behind along with whatever paltry work, if any, that they've contributed. Club officers are mostly sycophantic hacks, as are the sheep clamoring to join them like peasants begging for Mao badges. Maybe I'm just struggling to find my true "group," or maybe it's just that the transition back to in-person life, following 1.5 years of Zoom school and near-total isolation, is rougher than I expected. But so far I've seen no evidence to suggest that college will become anything like the blissful four years of fun that's so often portrayed on this site. Am I doing something wrong?