Honestly it is feeling hopeless
I am really starting to feel like the world and life is a nightmare at this point.
I worked at a boutique investment bank for close to 2 years, until I was laid off last year so the boss could give my position away to his buddies music major kid - analysts are a dime a dozen nothing personal he told me when I went to pick up my stuff. Alright, that sucks especially a month from bonus, but can always pick yourself up and dust yourself off and find something else right? So I did, moved to a new state to start a corporate finance job. Not too bad, pride still a bit wounded but it'll work out.
Fast forward to March of this year, Covid hits. I lose the job in the first waves of furloughs and a month later get notice to return my equipment because it's permanent. OK, that sucks but no worries unemployment can help - wrong. They won't pay out because I haven't worked here long enough, and back home won't pay out either for last year.
OK, that's awful. Well, strong resume and work experience I should be able to get another gig somewhere and my frugal nature gave me some savings that should last through this thing, right? 5 months and over 500 applications later for all manner of jobs I am grossly overqualified for to be rejected for the most asinine reasons and I have no leads and now officially living off debt only at this point. I had one part time job at a Trader Joe's until they cut half of us with round two of lockdowns, that's it - no family left alive or friends willing or able to help.
Finally reached my breaking point today with the last job lead drying up at the 9th hour and having to give my dog away because I can't afford his medicine anymore. I've been optimistic and struggled for such a long time and I thought after college it'll be better and I can make a better life for myself than how I grew up but now it feels truly hopeless.
I don't know why I'm posting here, maybe I just had way too much to drink tonight or maybe to know if I am alone in this nightmare or has anyone else have their life go up in flames from all this?